Emotionally I'm really at a sorta numb phase I guess. The pain is still there but the crying and shaking has stopped. A big part of it was my friend Jill (yes there's been a ton of apologies since that horrible night at the bar 2 weeks ago) who refused to let me stay home alone this weekend. I wound up at her house both last night and tonight for dinner and she reminded me of something important. "Everything happens for a reason."
I'm not sure what the reasoning for this big change was but all I can hope for is for it to be for the good....and it's telling me that it's finally time for me to make a life of my own now. A life I never really had the chance to live with since I was married at 20 and pregnant at 21. I'm not sure how it's going to go or anything but I do believe I made a good first step into a right direction...we'll have to wait and see.
Thanks again....I love you all.